This is my favourite
Mudra of my First Master Pujyashri Parthasarathi Rajagopalachariji (July 24, 1927
- Dec 20, 2014). This picture was taken when he just concluded Meditation by
saying ‘That’s all’ perhaps in Pune in 90s. One can feel the radiation of the deep
Compassion and profound Love with which he is looking at his flock and humanity
at large.
I started Sahaj Marg on March 23, 1990 at Hyderabad, India.
I was introduced by a brother called MS Padmanabhan who was a guard in Indian Railways
known to me. Shri Dr. Subba Rao was my Prefect who introduced me into the
Mission with 4 Introductory-Meditation sessions. Within a month Dr. Subba Rao
used to constantly tell me that I need to go to Chennai and meet Master at the
earliest and also used to say, “Krishna, never leave His feet in your life.” I
took it to heart. I was in the way of exploring various Gurus and Missions as a
part of my inner quest to find my answers to innermost queries that I had a LOT
that were bothering my mind at that time. In that spirit I decided to meet him
and found an opportunity also. This was the Celebration of Babuji’s Birthday at
Jaipur, Rajasthan on April 30, 1990. I reached Jaipur by April 27, 1990. Master
was staying in the Palace and abhyasis were waiting to meet him where he was
expected to sit. I was also waiting for him to come. I never had any idea of
how he looks like as I have not seen any of his photographs. I only heard
something about him from Dr. Subba Rao. I had no other acquaintance but him in
the Mission.
He finally arrived, a towering tall personality, well-built,
charismatic, and holy at the same time, his face radiating bright light, his
presence mesmerising. He has not yet talked. He came and sat on a chair. I was
sitting nearby but only looking at him with awe and wonder… no thoughts, no
questions, not feeling like talking, a deep inner silence as if all my
questions that were bothering for years were absolutely silenced or it was as
if I found instant answers without his talking to all my queries spontaneously.
There was immense peace experienced within that I never experienced before and
my heart instantly was wedded to him and said, “Your search for something stops
here and just be with him.” And when I heard him talk, I was floored by the
Lion like voice that had tremendous Conviction, Clarity, Content, Wit and
humour and the spiritual power to penetrate into and transform any heart with great
ease. Naturally my heart committed itself to him; I had no choice; and decided
that this life is for him and him only from this instant. That was my profound
First Exposure to Beloved Chariji. And that great moment, that profound state
of awe and wonder continues to unfold even now. For me this moment is as fresh
as it happened today. And this is the moment that is carrying me still and has
been protecting me in the turbulent periods of my spiritual career. I have been
associated with this Master from 1990 to 2014 physically and of course
eternally in the spiritual sense.
Ever since April 27, 1990 when I had the first Darshan
of the great Master, my life has taken great turn. It was not the same and
constantly improving in a natural way. He fixed my engagement with my better
half Ramani, an abhyasi too in the Mission and solemnised our marriage on April
30, 1993 at Babuji Memorial Ashram, Manapakkam, Chennai. He named my son and
daughter as Radhakrishna and Nalini. He gave me the opportunity of translating
the Sahaj Marg literature into Telugu which still continues ever since 1992. He
has been a great Protection in so many ways in my spiritual career. He allowed
me to publish a book compiled by me (and supported by my dearest Brothers Ulhas
and Shareef) titled “HeIS” that he liked very much. The book was released in July
24, 2004 at Thumukunta, Hyderabad. He also released another book compiled by me
titled “Fire Eternal” during a Bhandara in Tiruppur. He approved my decision of
taking to Voluntary retirement in Sep 2007 and said “ My blessings”. And I am
experiencing his blessings very vividly. Made me a Prefect on Dec 16, 2012 at
Manapakkam, Chennai. He also acknowledged my other compilations and expressed
that they be preserved for possible future-printing titled “Pearls from Deep
Within”, “So you see…”, and “Divine Showers”. He made me a member of Editorial
Board for Sahaj Marg literature (in Telugu) in 2012. Approved backdrops
designed and conceptualised by me for various Bhandaras of the Mission. The
concepts were, “Serve to Deserve”, “He IS”, “Consume yourself and illuminate
others” and “We should work All as One.” He also permitted me to be a faculty in
the Centre for Research Education Sadhana and Training (CREST, Kharagpur) and
allowed me to organize Telugu Training programs during 2011-2013. He has also
permitted me to translate the Whispers from the Brighter World messages into
Telugu in 2013.
His association physical, mental, emotional and spiritual
through his Presence, his teachings, his Work trained me unconsciously on the
various aspects and traits of my personality and Character and laid a great
foundations in me that are slowly manifesting with the blessings of Pujya Daaji
under whose guidance my training and my spiritual pursuit continues. All my
training was more indirect than direct. He was gracious enough to answer a few
of my personal letters to him that changed my life’s orientation.
I longed for a personal relationship with him physically as
a student/disciple which I feel has not happened. Though my First Moment was
driving my spiritual pursuit, I had some disappointments with him in some way
or the other because of my lack of necessary understanding that I now feel. I
was especially annoyed when he apparently used to pamper certain people when
there were more people who were ready to die for him, I felt. But the
tremendous training that I am benefitted with outweighs considerably more than
the disappointments. And now all the disappointments are also dissolved after
Daaji shared the pain that Chariji has undergone in his lifetime.
And towards 2014, when he was seriously ill, my heart started
feeling the pain of separation and the worry that I could not complete my
spiritual journey during his time gripped me. It was unbearable and could not
share it with anybody. That is the time I was blessed with a dream where Pujya
Chariji hugged me and said, “I know you are a hard worker.” I said, “I want
ONLY you, I desire nothing else.” To this he said, “it shall happen, don’t
worry.” And handed over me to Revered Daaji. It was an effortless smooth
transition that I never expected happened later after his Mahasamadhi on Dec
20, 2014 at Chennai. A renewed spiritual consciousness took over me and is
still unfolding in front me under the guidance Beloved Daaji whom I have accepted
heartily as My Gurudev that I used to address Pujya Chariji in my
correspondence. And my journey thus continues…
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